POST SHOW RECAP

Hi, hi.

There has been so so much going on in my life lately that I felt like my next post NEEDED to be a recap of what I have been up to!

I am going to start with I COMPETED IN MY FIRST COMPETITION! I was over. the. moon. I will never forget walking off the stage and the feeling that I felt. I was ready to eat. That was for damn sure.

Rolling back just a few days, me and some friends drove up to Spokane (where my show was going to take place) a few days early to get settled in and actually make a vacation out of the whole ordeal. I felt so fortunate to have these people come and support me as I pursued something that I have been working towards for months.

We got in around 1am on Thursday morning and went straight to bed. We were so exhausted from the drive and most of us had a long day on Wednesday. From Billings to Spokane is about 7 hours and we didn’t make it out of town until late afternoon. Going from waking up at 6:30am everyday to being able to sleep in was amazing. A not-so-secret about me is that I loveeeee to sleep. It’s a problem.

ANYWAYS! Thursday evening we went to Scarywood. Ooohhahhhh. If you have never heard of Scarywood before, it is just Silverwood but the employees dress up and walk around and scare you. Turns out, I do not really like haunted houses … I like a lot of scary and gory things but being scared ‘shitless’ is not something that I am interested in partaking in.

Friday we woke up pretty early and I got in my last workout. We were staying with my friend’s aunt and so we were able to cook some food for the next day since we knew that we wouldn’t be at home all day. I wasn’t staying with them that night because I was going to get my supppper dark tan and then hit the rack and prepare for the day ahead of me. I guess the biggest thing that I was nervous about was having my dad and sister coming to my show. I know that they will support in whatever I do but I always have a thought in the back of my head that I want to make them proud. So for me, this was a big deal.

Saturday was exhilarating. People can tell you what it is going to be like backstage and what poses you need to strike onstage but no one can prepare you for the feeling that you get once you are up there in front of all those people. You feel like you accomplished something that many feel they cannot (I believe everyone can achieve anything that they set their minds to but many don’t want to). Although I didn’t place. I came off stage with the biggest smile and I was ready to eat.

 

If you don’t know me then you really don’t know the struggles that I was having about competing. About a month before I was set to walk. I was having serious doubts. I feel like people don’t understand how I felt unless they have actually been in my position. I felt too ‘fat’, my posing wasn’t ‘good enough’, I wasn’t motivated etc. The list could go on and on. I pushed through because people would tell me that I would regret it if I didn’t. I pushed through not entirely for myself but for my friends and family that had given me such kind words of encouragement. And because of them, I chose to be at the most vulnerable state that day.

We came back on Sunday and boy did life not stop. My Coach wanted me back on a reverse diet by Wednesday and at first I really wanted to follow it. But now, after two and a half weeks.. I haven’t been eating the best or working out. It is hard because you go hard hard hard for eight months and you really don’t feel like you get time off. So I took the time off that I wanted and I’ll be going back to the gym this evening. I don’t and won’t ever maintain how lean I was that Saturday and I am ok with that. But since a few of you have followed this journey, I have decided to share my progress photos with you. I don’t look ‘cute’ by any means but these are my transition photos from start(ish) to finish.

I don’t look super lean in any of these but I was also pumping 2 gallons of water into my body each day with a crapton of veggies. I was constantly bloated and doing soooo SOOOO much cardio. On show day I thought it was a MIRACLE how lean I looked and even though I could have been leaner. I was so happy with my progress.

Since next weekend was Halloween weekend. I was DTP. I haven’t been out with my friends in so long that I was ready to dress up and have a good time! I was Pooh and my friend Nat was Piglet. We had a lot of fun dancing and enjoying each others company.

 

Unfortunately, we had so much fun on Saturday that we disregarded the fact that we were having people over to carve pumpkins on Sunday. Ohhhh no. We were not in the mindset that we needed to be to be cleaning our house and decorating. Even though we all weren’t feeling ‘too hot’ we had a heck of a time carving pumpkins with all of our friends.

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Can anyone guess which one is mine?

 

 

I know that this post was long awaited but it took me awhile to decide what I wanted to write. Thank you to everyone that supported me along the way of such a long journey. I will forever hold you all close to my heart.

23

Well hello!

Seems I’m a day late with this post right now but the way yesterday was going (super packed) I had a feeling that I wasn’t going to be able to get the post out in time. Today I wanted to discuss something different than another recap of my week. Because, honestly. Recaps definitely aren’t my most favorite to write and I’m sure they aren’t your most favorite to read.

I always do a reflection of my life at the beginning of each semester. I determine how much I want to be working vs. how much I need to be working and how both of those will affect my school work. I make sure that I am on the right path in my fitness journey and also make sure to keep my mental health in check. Unfortunately I can be known as the queen of taking too much on and sometimes that can get me in some trouble.

I always try to find balance in my life and sometimes it comes easy, and sometimes not so much. I feel like 23 has been a very awakening stage in my life where I truly found who I was as a person and 2017 has definitely been the year to make things (goals) happen. I used to be the girl that talked ‘big’ but never committed to something fully. So, one day, I decided not to be that girl anymore.

I feel like the first thing that I committed to was my majors in college. I couldn’t decide what I wanted to do for the longest time. And I knew that it wasn’t a race and I wasn’t ready to be at the finish line anyways. It’s funny, because when I tell people that I want to go into forensics they always ask, ‘Like Dexter?’ What’s funny about it is that I was watching Dexter when it clicked what I wanted to be. So, no. I don’t want to be a serial killer; but yes, I do want to do blood analysis. Got it?

That brings me into my junior year of college. I had a challenging sophomore year (to say the least) but I think that goes back to ‘taking on too much at one time’. Early Spring was my second big decision. I have always been a ‘talker’. Yeah, I’m going to do this or that and never really made it happen. WELL, that is annoying. What are you waiting for? Just say you’re going to do something and just get. it. done. Don’t hesitate. I decided to enter my first NPC competition (oh, here she goes again .. we get it, you work out). It wasn’t a tough decision because I literally thought about it for two days and signed up for a Coach and here I am. Although there are struggles with my prep, I am the happiest and healthiest version of myself at this time in my life. I found that I don’t need to drink or be the life of the party to keep friends or to have a good time. I have officially been two DD’s this summer on two different bachelorette parties and each time I was still able to enjoy myself. Yes, I do like to drink. But, no. I don’t need it to have a good time.

Which brings me to my third big decision. STARTING A BLOG! I didn’t wait too long before I decided to launch .. I was just so excited! I have never been the girl to put her entire life on the internet, but here I am! Allowing people into my life an open book. I knew if I waited too long, then it would never have happened. And I’m so happy for the way things have turned out.

This year I have learned that being alone is OK. I don’t have the FOMO that other people have lingering over them. Sometimes at the end of the day, I just want to curl up in bed and watch a good tv show, alone. And I love that. For a long time I did feel dependent on other people (to the point where I didn’t want to even run errands alone). It feels good to know that I am self-sufficient but my friends are also there when I need them as well.

I know a few posts ago I mentioned friends come and go. And I feel like that came with age as well. When you’re younger you want to hold on to as many friends as you have because it feels like almost quantity over quality. You soon find in life that it is all about quality. I got a good dose of that at the age of 23 as well.

Like I said earlier, 23 has taught me so much and as December rolls around .. I’m excited to see what 24 has in store. Because I know that it can hold nothing but greatness if I go into it with the right attitude. Every so often there are years of learning and growing. So yesterday, when I was reflecting upon my life. I see how I have changed and progressed so much within the last year, cool! The point of this post is to just be proud of who are you are, because you should always be your own number one cheerleader.

Well, besides my cat. He’s probably my number one cheerleader for sure.

 

Anyways! I hope you all have a good weekend and check back soon for new updates. Let the good times roll, people!

QUESTIONS:

Who is your number one supporter?

Do you have any animals?

 

PS – Since I haven’t posted a workout in forever. Here is a quick booty-crusher workout to get you through the weekend!

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