Did Someone Say Stress?


Good morning!

I was having some serious struggles on what to write about this week and my good friend, Joseph, mentioned that I should do a post on stress. dun dun dun DUN.

I feel like I am a professional at stress. During school, I am constantly stressing about my next test, my next workout, my next nap etc. I know I have mentioned it many-a-times but it took me quite some time to find the balance that I am at today… and even now I am still working on it. So today I am going to share some things that stress me out and how I choose to fix them!

1. Stressing about tests at school

UGH, this one is a stinker. I hate when I have to study and have to blow off plans with my friends. But, honestly .. NO ONE LIKES TO DO THAT. Sometimes you have to pick at what is more important in your life in that moment and what will take you farther in your future. Sometimes you need to stay home to ‘hit the books’ instead of ‘hitting the club’. No one said that paying someone $5000 a semester and then having them test you would be easy but they did say it would be worth it.

2. Stressing about sleep

8 hours? What is 8 hours? Generally I sleep around 5-6 hours a night. I know that isn’t the healthiest but I have a guilty pleasure to confess. I love watching television. And I know that probably isn’t what you were expecting that was keeping me up all night but I before I go to bed, television relaxes me quite a bit! I don’t binge in the evenings by any means but 1 episode of my favorite show and I feel sleepy and ready for bed. Because of my evening job and my early morning classes though, tv can really affect my sleep patterns at night. I definitely need to work on just showering and going straight to bed and not turning on the tv at all.

3. Stressing about being ‘good enough’

I can’t be the only one that feels this way .. I feel like I am always struggling with who I am and who I want to be. I feel like no matter what the situation is, I don’t always feel ‘good enough’. If it is with friends, health, my competition coming up, etc. I just feel like I am constantly competing with myself in the worst ways. I overthink every situation and think of every possibility of how it may go wrong. I would say that to an extent, this isn’t necessarily a bad thing but sometimes when you stress about one thing, you just stress about everything.

4. Stressing about money

I feel like I do this more often than not. I’m always worried about how much money is in my checking account, how much cash I have on me (server life), or how much money I’m saving. I always feel like I save, save, save and live so frugal that I miss certain events just to build up my bank account. I know that life isn’t all about money but for some reason it tends to be the center of my mind. Just always remember that memories will last longer than a check.

5. Stressing about the future

WHY. Why not live in the moment? Be present. Sometimes I’ll find my train of thought thinking about ‘the next best thing’. Why don’t I focus on the now? I always picture the future as being this wonderful thing and I get anxious. I need to understand that there is something positive about every moment. I need to be grateful for how far I have come in the ‘right now’ and not focus too much on where I am heading. It is always good to set goals but just make sure you don’t have tunnel vision in the process.

Feeling pretttty productive with two posts this week and can’t wait to share the next couple weeks with you!

Knock, knock

Wellll helllloooo,

Yes, I am still alive and yes, still blogging. I did take a slight hiatus because school and my competition prep has kept me busier than usual! But, I have some fun recaps to share as to what I have been up to!

I am two weeks out from my competition in Spokane and I couldn’t be more pumped. I have struggled a lot this prep with staying motivated and on track but these past few months have been really eye opening. Once I got my suit I realized that it was all becoming real. As much as I would love to share progress photos.. I think I will save them until after I come back from my show.


(This is actually my favorite gif right now)

Last week, Sidney, Lindsey and I decided last minute that we wanted to go the Jimmy Eat World concert. We had soooo much fun. I think we only knew like two or three songs but we danced in the crowd and had a great time anyways. I love that we were all able to share this experience together even though we didn’t know any of the lyrics.


On Friday, MY BEST FRIEND GOT MARRIED. Helllll ya. Not only did she get married but I was able to be apart of the big day. It was so beautiful to watch her and her (now)husband tie-the-knot. Not to mention that her maid of honor and I cut a freaking rug on the dance floor (if you didn’t know already – I LOVE to dance).

On Sunday evening, my friends Nat, Jess and I went to the pumpkin patch. ‘Tis the season! I love Fall. I love the weather, the smells, the food. We took a hay ride up to the top of the corn maze, walked through and then picked out which pumpkins to carve. I was especially excited because we are having a ‘pumpkin carving party’ when I get back from my show on the 29th! I love to celebrate the holidays surrounded by friends and family.

Even though this post was ‘short and sweet’ I will definitely keep you guys in the loop of my last two weeks of cutting! Stay tuned!